I am so confused. I think I know what the best choice in the long run would be… But once again my head and heart don’t agree. I’ve been all for listening to my heart in the past and that’s gotten me nowhere but into trouble and heartache. Yet is that a reason to stop listening to what my heart wants or is that the perfect reason to continue with whichever path my heart chooses? Yes, I’ve been hurt a lot. Yes, things have not been easy. Yes, sometimes it was obvious to everyone but me that my choices were bad ones. However, I’ve also grown so much and had a lot of experiences that I wouldn’t have ha otherwise. I wouldn’t be the person I am today… And honestly, I am a good fucking person. So I don’t know what to do, I feel stuck. The hardest part is that I know it’s my decision to make but I have no clue how to make this decision. I’ve never felt so torn, I’ve always known what I wanted even if it was hard since it wasn’t what others wanted for me… I hate this. I dunno what to do and I don’t know how to know. Ughhh.